Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Oct 2008
One of t
he hardest things I have come to realize is just how large
I really was. I was so fat that I after I had lost 50 lbs, not that many people noticed. I still look very fat & overweight. I AM still fat & overweight, but it is slowly melting off. Thank goodness. I am feeling much better - my knees...my back...it doesn't hurt just to get out of bed in the morning. I have more energy. I love it. I am really looking forward to losing the next 50 pounds!
I started at 265. Oh My Goodness I said it. Wow. When you are that fat - the only person you are fooling is yourself!
I am only 5'2" (if I am lucky). My goal is to be 120-130. I would settle for 150 if I had to, but I want 'more' now. I am getting greedy to be a lower weight.
I want to look good for my hubby - I want him to be proud
to show me on his arm and by his side. This photo was taken
a couple weeks ago - after I had already lost 50.
The loss is slower now that I am eating real food, but I am
getting more energy to start working out more.
The battle continues. Tune in another day....
Hugs and kisses to family. LYWAMH Lo
he hardest things I have come to realize is just how largeI really was. I was so fat that I after I had lost 50 lbs, not that many people noticed. I still look very fat & overweight. I AM still fat & overweight, but it is slowly melting off. Thank goodness. I am feeling much better - my knees...my back...it doesn't hurt just to get out of bed in the morning. I have more energy. I love it. I am really looking forward to losing the next 50 pounds!
I started at 265. Oh My Goodness I said it. Wow. When you are that fat - the only person you are fooling is yourself!
I am only 5'2" (if I am lucky). My goal is to be 120-130. I would settle for 150 if I had to, but I want 'more' now. I am getting greedy to be a lower weight.
I want to look good for my hubby - I want him to be proud
to show me on his arm and by his side. This photo was taken
a couple weeks ago - after I had already lost 50.
The loss is slower now that I am eating real food, but I am
getting more energy to start working out more.
The battle continues. Tune in another day....
Hugs and kisses to family. LYWAMH Lo
Thursday, October 02, 2008
50 lbs,
Well yesterday was the day I hit 50. Yes 50 lbs. I know it was more, but I am only counting from the first weigh in at the doctors office in SB (June 2008). I will post some photos as soon as I can get them from my hubby. Getting photos off the camera isn't too bad, it is getting him to share that is the hard part.
Surgery went well on Thursday in early August. I stayed in SB & then hubby & kids picked me up the next day to take me home. Easy Breezy.
That was the easy part. This is one of the hardest things I have done yet. I have tossed my cookies more since surgery then all thru chemo last year. Boy, you learn your lesson fast! Small bites, chew well - really, really well and have very small portions. Everything smells wonderful until you take a bite (nibble). Everything is either way too sweet or just blah.
No rice. No chewy bread. No sweets. Tried just a sip of diet pepsi & it tasted like thick, sweet, syrup. Can't believe I loved those that much before.
I drink water constantly, but have found I don't like it room temp. I want it hot or cold. Room temp tastes like weak tea - funny flavor.
Was all this worth it? Oh yeah!
I still have a long way to go, but learning to eat again has been an adventure that I will gladly explore. I love food. Tastes, textures, smells, colors. All of it. But now, I am really appreciating and watching what I eat because I have to. Not just because I want to, but no errors are allowed. Error = tossing cookies.
I have had the best support from everyone and I want to thank you all. My kids are taking the longest to figure this out, but they have come around.
I am looking forward to the next 6-12 months to see what happens.
Hope all is well in family land. Miss you all. Can't wait to see everyone soon.
hugs & kisses.
Surgery went well on Thursday in early August. I stayed in SB & then hubby & kids picked me up the next day to take me home. Easy Breezy.
That was the easy part. This is one of the hardest things I have done yet. I have tossed my cookies more since surgery then all thru chemo last year. Boy, you learn your lesson fast! Small bites, chew well - really, really well and have very small portions. Everything smells wonderful until you take a bite (nibble). Everything is either way too sweet or just blah.
No rice. No chewy bread. No sweets. Tried just a sip of diet pepsi & it tasted like thick, sweet, syrup. Can't believe I loved those that much before.
I drink water constantly, but have found I don't like it room temp. I want it hot or cold. Room temp tastes like weak tea - funny flavor.
Was all this worth it? Oh yeah!
I still have a long way to go, but learning to eat again has been an adventure that I will gladly explore. I love food. Tastes, textures, smells, colors. All of it. But now, I am really appreciating and watching what I eat because I have to. Not just because I want to, but no errors are allowed. Error = tossing cookies.
I have had the best support from everyone and I want to thank you all. My kids are taking the longest to figure this out, but they have come around.
I am looking forward to the next 6-12 months to see what happens.
Hope all is well in family land. Miss you all. Can't wait to see everyone soon.
hugs & kisses.
