Friday, July 20, 2007
Life is Amazing
Isn't it amazing at how fast life can come at you?!
The girls got out of school for the summer and Madi gets chicken pox a couple days after school is out. Work that around the chemo schedule, work and doctor visits - a bit busy. Then Tori doesn't get the pox - well, ok, she got two pock marks, but develops Meningitis. That is enough to stop you in your tracks, right there! Poor baby was miserable.
The girls are still in softball - it doesn't stop from February thru October. Practice every night of the week for one or the other kid, then tourneys on the weekends. It is amazing we see
each other as a family. I am beginning to long for the days when they weren't old enough to watch themselves...days when they weren't off with their friends constantly...days when they didn't have something planned...BUT then I remember that the house will be picked up before I get home...days that they fix dinner for themselves or the family...days that they can take care of themselves so that I don't have to worry about daycare or babysitters.
Time is going by so fast that I need to slow down and spend more time with my kids before they leave me behind. I thought that the cancer would slow us down, but it only slowed me down. And I can truly say that it has kicked my butt this time. I am so grateful to be here. I may be slow, but I am here. The girls take care of me and forgive me when I am grouchy and in pain. I am so lucky to have the support of Billy and the girls. I could not have asked for a better husband and loving father. Thank you all for your loving support. This includes my dad, my brothers and their families, my friends, Billy and the girls especially.
Be thankful for everyday that you can get out of bed and see your family for there are so many who cannot do this for themselves.
Life can surprise you, lift you up and slam you down, but it is never boring.
I guess that I am done rambling, I just want to let everyone know how thankful I am and hope that I am still rambling on 30 years from now.
My goal right now is to get thru next surgery and get thru to this birthday and then one more year to prove I can make it. I will reach 45 next year.
I will be here.
I will.
The girls got out of school for the summer and Madi gets chicken pox a couple days after school is out. Work that around the chemo schedule, work and doctor visits - a bit busy. Then Tori doesn't get the pox - well, ok, she got two pock marks, but develops Meningitis. That is enough to stop you in your tracks, right there! Poor baby was miserable.
The girls are still in softball - it doesn't stop from February thru October. Practice every night of the week for one or the other kid, then tourneys on the weekends. It is amazing we see
each other as a family. I am beginning to long for the days when they weren't old enough to watch themselves...days when they weren't off with their friends constantly...days when they didn't have something planned...BUT then I remember that the house will be picked up before I get home...days that they fix dinner for themselves or the family...days that they can take care of themselves so that I don't have to worry about daycare or babysitters.
Time is going by so fast that I need to slow down and spend more time with my kids before they leave me behind. I thought that the cancer would slow us down, but it only slowed me down. And I can truly say that it has kicked my butt this time. I am so grateful to be here. I may be slow, but I am here. The girls take care of me and forgive me when I am grouchy and in pain. I am so lucky to have the support of Billy and the girls. I could not have asked for a better husband and loving father. Thank you all for your loving support. This includes my dad, my brothers and their families, my friends, Billy and the girls especially.
Be thankful for everyday that you can get out of bed and see your family for there are so many who cannot do this for themselves.
Life can surprise you, lift you up and slam you down, but it is never boring.
I guess that I am done rambling, I just want to let everyone know how thankful I am and hope that I am still rambling on 30 years from now.
My goal right now is to get thru next surgery and get thru to this birthday and then one more year to prove I can make it. I will reach 45 next year.
I will be here.
I will.
